Still Not Found

You know, it really doesn't matter, does it? My name, your name, the name of the men who storm in, guns drawn, uniforms pressed, cameras at the ready to record the destruction you wrought. They don't have names, either, just badge numbers. I am a case number, you, you are a series of numbers, 188, height, weight, charge numbers, crime numbers, docket numbers.

1. That is the number of weapons you used.
2. That is the number of body parts you hit me with.
3. That is the number of bones you broke in my face.
7. That is the number of distinct memory lapses I have.
2. The number of MRIs I had because of this.
9. The number of hours I waited in emerge.
2. The number of police officers who came to every incident involving you.
1. The number of family members I lost because of this.
4. The number of dogs I sold to pay for you to have a lawyer before you did this.
3. The number of pills it will take to end this
12. The number of pills to take prior to ease the way.
27. the number of ml I think will work.
35. The age at which all innocence is lost.
30. The age at which you first learned to kill.

But no names. None of us have names. Not you, not me, not them.

All aboard

There's a lot of freaks out there.... a lot of freaks and geeks and psychos and psychics and ..people you should never tell your name to. So you will never find my name here.
You will find my heart, my soul, maybe even pieces of my body, but you will never find my identity. So if you're here in hopes of finding a kindred spirit, you may find that. If you are here in hopes of finding a new best friend, you will never find that. For you will never even know my name.
There's freedom in that. Freedom for you, to imagine me how you want, as who you want. Freedom for me, to speak honestly, and without fear of repercussion.
The world is full of hatred and ignorance and bigotry. I can promise you that you will not find ignorance or bigotry here. Hatred will definitely play it's part, as will every emotion I feel note worthy. There may be moments of love, and moments of death. It will be random and sporadic just like most things in life.
So with that, let's do this.